Past The Day

PAST THE DAY

I stay up past the day
Into each tomorrow
Waiting for your call.
How many days before
The waiting no longer
Affects me?
I know the day will
Come, unless you
Show up first.
C.D.RANSOM

No Choice

NO CHOICE

I have no choice but
To wait and I hate
Every damn day and
Minute of it.
C.D.RANSOM

Do You Know?

DO YOU KNOW?

If you know my soul.
Then you know that
Each day that you
Do not call kills my
Heart just a little
More.
If you do not know
My soul.
Then I have fallen
For a dream in the
Mist.
C.D.RANSOM

Never Said No

NEVER SAID NO

She has never said no.
She leaves it open.
But with no promises.
I do not believe she
Knows what she wants.
I do not believe she
Knows what this does
To me.
Meanwhile she is
checking it out with
An old love.
Boy ain’t life so much
Fun.
Where is the check out
Counter?
I want out.
C.D.RANSOM

The Magic Is Gone

THE MAGIC IS GONE

The magic has left the Wenesday
Night poker game.
It was your presence that made
The magic happen.
I spent the entire time caressing
The chair you should have been
In with my knee.
Hoping that somehow you would
Feel the love and longing I was
Sending out to you through the
Ether that separates us.
C.D.RANSOM

Understanding My Anger

UNDERSTANDING MY ANGER

I begin to understand my anger.
Your mother with whom you
Fought, you called.
Me who supported your efforts,
You haven’t.
The only one you said you were
Sorry to leave, is the one who
Doesn’t know where you are or
How you are.
It is that simple.
C.D.RANSOM

End Of Discussion

END OF DISCUSSION

I really don’t give a
Shit what anything
Means any more.
If you are not here
With me, then you
Do not want what
Is me.
It is that simple.
End of Discussion.
C.D.RANSOM

Another Night Into Tomorrow

ANOTHER NIGHT INTO TOMORROW

Another night into tomorrow.
And still no call from the
Beloved one.
As each day passes it gets
Easier to take the disappointment.
It gets easier to believe that I
Have been used and discarded
As functionless in her new life.
I do not want to believe this of
Her, but actions speak louder
Than words and without word
From her, her action is to
Ignore me.
C.D.RANSOM

Another Night Into Tomorrow 2

ANOTHER NIGHT INTO TOMORROW 2

Another night into tomorrow.
This thought is losing its
Power.
It is becoming a nothing phrase.
The lid is all but closed on my
Heart.
I wonder if I can change the
Lock so it will be harder for
Any to open it again?
Or will she be able to open it
If she returns?
C.D.RANSOM

Nothing Has Changed

NOTHING HAS CHANGED

Does she have the key?
Yes, she does, if anyone has it.
Does it matter that she hasn’t
Called?
No, it really doesn’t.
I said, Follow your heart”.
I said, “See if it is real”.
I said, “Call me sometime”.
I know that I am in her heart
Of hearts.
And if she decides that where
She is now is not where she
Belongs, she will think of me.
As for me, I shall go on as I
Have done in the past.
I didn’t have you in my past.
I do not have you now.
So nothing has really changed
In the way I live.
The only change is in my heart.
And I can do nothing about that.
Nor do I want to.
C.D.RANSOM