Fear

FEAR

Have they gone to get you yet?
Will you be at the store if I go by?
I am afraid to go and see.
Maybe tomorrow I will have the
Courage to see you face to face.
That’s if you are there.
But tonight I do not have the
Courage to do so.
I feel have been left out of the
Loop that concerns you.
Your Mother tells me nothing.
Our friend tells me nothing.
Your friend tells me nothing.
The old Him sounds like he is
Is going to get his “personal”
Life back together again.
I am sure he means you.
You have talked to everyone
About what you are doing,
Except me.
I guess the only part I can
Play is to do nothing,
Even if you are here again.
Damn, I wish I didn’t love you.
Then life would be simple again.
C.D.RANSOM

Nothing Said

NOTHING SAID

Well our friend said nothing
About you tonight.
Maybe you are not here.
But I know you are coming
And then I will have to face
Whatever you are going to do.
I do not know why,
But I believe that my time
Will never come to pass.
C.D.RANSOM

As She Does

AS SHE DOES

I am not sure what I have to say.
When you left you hugged
Everybody, but not me.
While you were gone you called
Everybody, but not me.
Upon your return you hugged
Everybody, but not me.
Pay attention to what she does.
As she does, so it is.
And she does nothing with me.
C.D.RANSOM

What Have I Done?

WHAT HAVE I DONE?

Why does she treat me this way?
What have I done to deserve this?
Nothingness she presents me with.
I went from friend to less than
Nothing and I haven’t even spoken
With her since she left.
C.D.RANSOM

The Esoteric Joker

THE ESOTERIC JOKER

The esoteric Joker can be
Whatever it chooses to be.
The Queen of Hearts to be
Is not what the Joker wants.
Once again the Ace of Spades
Chooses wrong.
Destiny again proves its
Power over wants and desires.
C.D.RANSOM

Truth Of Reality

TRUTH OF REALITY

Once again the nice
Guy finishes last.
Who didn’t know
That wouldn’t happen?
All but a small part
Called hope did.
Foolish hope,
It’s time you learned
The truth of reality.
C.D.RANSOM

Total Conversation

TOTAL CONVERSATION

“Hi Dan”
That is the total conversation
We have had in two months.
It hurts to be treated this way
By you.
I have done nothing to warrant
This cold shoulder I receive.
If you do not want what I offer.
Say so out right.
For what you are doing is
Killing my feelings for you.
C.D.RANSOM

A Friend No More

A FRIEND NO MORE

I walked in and you
Quit speaking.
Then went into speaking
In whispers after giving
Me a look that made me
Feel like I was an intruder
In your life.
If this is how you treat the
Only person you said you
Were going to miss and
Were not mad at,
Then I do not want to be
A friend nor anything else
For that matter.
C.D.RANSOM

The Only Decision

THE ONLY DECISION

Dare I really make
Such a decision without
Full understanding?
Yes, I think I must.
Your actions ignore me.
Your eyes do not include
Me in their looking.
If this is true then I
Have nothing to look
Forward too.
If it some sort of
Game you are playing,
Then I want no part
Of it at all.
For I want no games.
The only decision to
Make is too forget
All about it with you.
C.D.RANSOM

Last Thoughts

LAST THOUGHTS

What a ride it has been.
I’ve learned some good
Things about myself
Out of it.
So it hasn’t been a
Total loss.
C.D.RANSOM