But What To Do In The Mean Time

BUT WHAT TO DO IN THE MEAN TIME

As for me,
I stay alone most of
The time.
For I can’t find a
Woman who is what I
Want.
Maybe I never will.
For I have set
Standards that seem
Impossibe.
I also get very shy
Around any woman who
Has the physical looks
I want.
So I come across as a
Dull person.
But then I do not want
To have to impress
Anyone.
I am as I am,
And that is always
Changing.
The day that I meet
The right lady,
Things will flow easily
Between us.
We will know that it
Is right.
But Where is my lady?
I am so alone at times
That it hurts.
May it be that when it
No longer hurts,
That I will find her?
But what to do in the
Mean time,
That is the question?
C.D.RANSOM

What’s Good?

WHAT’S GOOD?

Why is it so hard to
Give ones heart away
To another?
It would seem that
The only perfect,
No,
Not perfect,
But good love affair
Is only possible in
Ones own mind.
If only it did not
Seem all so ludicrous
I might enjoy the
Game.
But peoples games I
Cannot abide.
All must be open and
Honest for me.
C.D.RANSOM

I Am Too Nice

I AM TOO NICE

The new seems oh,
Oh so right.
But then every time
They do,
Don’t they?
It seems so unreal that
It be so.
Is it just that they are
Females?
Or am I just that lonely
That I fall for them all?
No, not all.
For there have been ones
Who have meant nothing
To me.
The odds should be in my
Favor.
But the fatal flaw
Shows up,
The one that sends them
All running away.
It is the one thing that
Has killed all my
Begining love affairs
For years.
I am too nice!
I have heard from lots
Of ladies that they
Want a man who is nice
To them.
But give them what they
Want and what happens?
They run away!
Why?
All I can say is,
That the one who doesn’t
Run,
Is likely to be the one
I really want.
But then the one who
Doesn’t run will be the
One who is too nice to me.

C.D.RANSOM

Lost Trust

LOST TRUST

What is it I seek in this
World of love?
I know not.
The ones who seem to
Call my heart are not
The ones who do my
Soul any good.
The ones who are good
In my soul I do not want.
Do I still not know
Enough to find one who
Can be both?
Again I ask,
What is the key to my
Locked door that I may
Open it and find love
And end my loneliness?
I watch men who abuse
Their women and still
Manage to keep their
Love alive.
While I who do not
Must go unloved by
Any who stir my
Heart, soul and loins.
Do I still seek that
Love I needed from my
Mother?
I have had her by
Proxy and it was both
Good and bad.
Good in the fact that it
Was the happiest six
Months of my life.
Bad in the fact that I
Learned that I did not
Really like the person
That my Mother was.
Was this a lesson that
I really needed to learn
About?
It does not seem to have
Changed whatever it is
I seek in a woman.
The most it has done is
To have given me the
Distrust of people.
For I no longer believe
What people say they
Are or what they will do.
C.D.RANSOM

Fool That I Am

FOOL THAT I AM

Again to be trapped by
The beauty of a woman.
How many lessons does
It take to learn?
Am I ever to be the fool
Of hope gone wrong?
To be alone is not what
I desire of my life.
Why then does it go on
And on that way?
What key am I missing
That will unlock that
Door and end my
Loneliness?
I tire of asking the
Question.
C.D.RANSOM

Disjointed Melody

DISJOINTED MELODY

Words are slow in coming on
This night.
Emotions are numb after
Their last assault.
Feelings too are dead as causes
Go by unheard.
Zombie like I function in the
Day to day world.
No thoughts are working
Toward goals.
They are but a disjointed
Melody.
An old saying of mine comes
To mind though.
If they don’t want you,
Then they are not worth
Having or worrying about,
Forget it.
I must now do as I say.
You do not want me,
Then you are not worth
Having or worrying about,
I must forget it.
The one who leaves,
Is not the one.
No matter how desirable
The unhaveable maybe.
For they are poison to
The soul and are only
Fuel for the poets pen.
I wish no more a poet
To be.
C.D.RANSOM

Farewell Words

FAREWELL WORDS

Whatever it may
Take to win your
Heart,
I fear I have not
The makings.
So with these
Final words I
Will bid you
Farewell and not
Bother your life
Anymore.
C.D.RANSOM