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July 9, 2009

The End

Filed under: Last Lost Love 3 — Tags: , , , , , , , , — dansideas @ 11:57 pm


No, I still have more to write.
Maybe not for you, maybe it’s
For me.
Away to get out what I feel.
Away to get over the loss and
Sorrow of something I didn’t
Have, but wanted with all my
Heart and soul.
I know it would have been
Wonderful between us.
Who knows, maybe it will not
Work and you will come back
To try it with me.
For it does sound like I am the
Only other person who you feel
Cares about you and what you
Feel and think and want.
Your happiness is more important
To me than my own, so go and be
As happy as you can.
Give it your best shot and to Hell
With what others might say.
You are the most important
Person in your life.
And if you are happy, then your
Daughter will be also.


Fight For Love

Filed under: Last Lost Love 3 — Tags: , , , , , , , , — dansideas @ 11:44 pm


Fight for the one you love.
How does one do that when there
Doesn’t appear to be something
To fight for?
A friend I started.
A friend I am.
A friend is all I seem to ever be.
If I thought I still had a chance
To win your heart,
I would fight.
But I cannot compete with whom
Your heart now wants to be with.
He stirs your fires and dreams as
You stir mine.
You know how I feel.
You know what I want.
You know me like a twin.
But you give me no sign.
If your heart doesn’t want what
I offer, then I cannot force it
To love me.
I can only give what you will take.
Love is a two way street and I do
Not want to walk on a one-way
Road to nowhere.
I have had enough pain in my life
And do not want to court more.
I am afraid to say it, but you will
Have to come to me and let me
Know that you are willing to try.
I can say no more for what is
There left to say?

I Saw You Today

Filed under: Last Lost Love 3 — Tags: , , , , , , , , — dansideas @ 11:31 pm


I saw you today and didn’t really
Feel much of anything.
I wonder if I am really learning
Not to love you any more?
It sure would make my life easier.

I saw you today and my heart beat
Faster for you looked so good.
You looked so sad.

I saw you today and my
Heart hurt.
For you were crying and I could
Do nothing to ease your pain.

It is not for me to do this for you.
One has left and you choose another.
It is his job to ease your pain.

As for loneliness My Dear
I know it only too well.
I am almost numb from it.
If it could kill my empanthy,
It would almost be worth the
Price paid by my tortured soul.

I want no more to care.
The price I pay for befriending
You when you were in need is
To high to pay for nothing.
Which is what I ended up with.
I will learn not to love.

A Bloodly Path

Filed under: Last Lost Love 3 — Tags: , , , , , , , , — dansideas @ 11:21 pm


Now it begins.
The words and thoughts of a
Mind being torn by love and
Wants denied.
For the deepest dreams are
Hidden with the deepest madness
Of emotions.
Love tormented frees the devils
Associated with the tortured soul.
It brings forth the words torn
And leaves a bloody path upon
The paper it is written.

Poems Lost

Filed under: Last Lost Love 3 — Tags: , , , , , , , , — dansideas @ 11:16 pm


More poems are lost
In my head than I can
Find the time to write
Them down.
I wish I could forget
My heart as easily.

Biding Time

Filed under: Last Lost Love 2 — Tags: , , , , , , , , — dansideas @ 11:11 pm


You are not happy
Where you are now.
Just biding time
Until something
What will it take
To make you look
At me?

I Am Not Them

Filed under: Last Lost Love 2 — Tags: , , , , , , , , — dansideas @ 11:08 pm


With no one to give too.
I have nothing to give
For anyone else.
I stay alone now.
It feels better.
I am not them.
They are not me.
And with you there,
But not for me.
It feels like a waste
Of time.
Why be uncomfortable
There when I can be
Comfortable alone
At home.
This I know well for
I have spent most of
My time this way.
I am used to it and
Can stay out of trouble.
For there is no one for
Me to meet here.

No Smiles Effects

Filed under: Last Lost Love 2 — Tags: , , , , , , , , — dansideas @ 10:52 pm


I saw you tonight but got no smile.
Is that because he was there to
Maybe see what that smile would
Do for me?
Or is it that what almost happened
Wasn’t real to you as it was for me?
I begin to wonder if I was used to
Get his attention.
No, that can’t be for you had no idea
Of what would happen between us.
I had no idea of what I would learn
About my feelings for you.
What the Hell am I writing this
Stuff for?
Will you ever read it?
Do I want you to read it?
Things seem okay between you and
Him right now.
If things stay okay you will stay
With him.
And my feelings will be for not.
To have loved and lost without ever
Having been able to love—
I have no words to describe how it

One Is A Lonely Number

Filed under: Last Lost Love 2 — Tags: , , , , , , , , — dansideas @ 10:42 pm


I knew I was alone before, but.
I never knew just how alone I was.
I guess one gets used to being just one.
But with the thought of being three
And maybe even more for years to
Come being possible.
One now is a very lonely number.
The hours that could be spent
Together make the hours now
Spent just so much wasted time.
They are wasted only because I
Want to spend them with you.
Anything else seems useless.
My world has been standing still.
For the first time I see life as
Being something worthwhile to live.
A long wait this has been and I wish
To wait no longer.


Filed under: Last Lost Love 2 — Tags: , , , , , , , , — dansideas @ 10:32 pm


I sometimes truly think that you
Want to come to me.
I can feel your energy striving to
Reach out for me.
I think what will make us happy
Will upset all the others around
For we will gain and they will lose.

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