THE ACE AND THE QUEEN
I have slipped back into
My child again.
For once again the Ace of
Spades has killed the
The Queen of Hearts.
I now know the reason for
My depressions and anger.
Ever since I was a child I
Have longed for love and
Affection.
And I am mad as Hell that
I haven’t had it yet.
How long must I wait for
What I want?
The longer I go without
The more the fury builds.
I guess I feel cheated out
Of something that I want.
It is no wonder that I am
Easily frustrated in my
Life.
I have had years and years
Of practice at it,
Ever since birth.
I guess that’s when it started.
And as I approach the age of
38 it seems to long to have
Been without it.
It does not suprise me that
I have fallen in love so often.
I am desperatley in need or
Want of what I do not have.
The question remains as to
Whether or not I will live
Long enough to get it.
If 80 is lets say a normal
Life span,
Then half my life is over.
And if the second half
Follows the first,
Which is likely,
Due to me being me.
Changes are not likely to
Start now.
Then little hope remains
For the future.
But I always hope.
For without hope,
There is nothing.
Nothing at all.
C.D.RAMSOM